Uhhm July, Just how hot and sweaty did you get?

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Oh man, oh man, oh man do i have to GUSSSSH...

So it's July right? us arizonans know that in july it could well reach 125, no problem....well imagine that with humidity!I KNOW! god, it's so hot, i can't wait to be outta this place.

Other than the heat in the tri phoenix area, some other cities are cooling down nicely, and are making for nice day drives when i can't handle my life anymore. Prescott still remains up there in my top list of cities to visit during the summer, i love the little like farmers markets they have...god i don't know what to call em' they're kinda like the little booths you'd find in Times Square, New York...

As for my love life, there are always men who attempt to get to know me, and who are quickly shot and shut down with words of non-encouragement...but the only one who i want to get to know and vice versa, seems life he really just doesn't give a shit, and it's really actually depressing. I mean, he's not just your average guy deep down inside. He's really adorable when he wants to be...but not lately. i don't know; things seem to go back and forth, and maybe that's a sign, but maybe its a good sign he's still in my life. Every night i spend apart from him, i have nightmares that just get worse and worse and i cant handle it, i can't even calm myself back down enough to go to bed. and most days whether I'm upset with him or not, i would give anything to make sure he's alright and he's got everything he needs. i don't think he knows that. i want him to though, i want him to understand why i put up with him...not because i have need to, because i want to.

don't read beyond this line if you don't wanna know what happens to our two very mortal but extremely fictitious characters!
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as for book two....honestly i think I've completely forgotten all about it, but i think I'm finally in the right state of mind to write it, esp with everything that's been going on. i just feel like i can make her do my will, and i feel like i can make him love her enough to let another man become her priority...but i don't know if it'll come to that...i don't know where the story is taking me...